SHANE MACGOWAN'S wife has revealed she feels guilty about not doing enough to care for the former Pogues frontman in an emotional post to her Instagram page.
Victoria Mary Clarke, who has been married to MacGowan for three years, has been helping the singer get back on his feet following years of alcohol abuse.
She's been caring for the 63-year-old full-time ever since MacGowan fell and injured his knee, which left him bedridden.
Taking to Instagram, she expressed how sorry she felt that shouldn't always do right by him.
"A lot of the time I feel guilty about not doing enough for Shane, not being superhuman not having enough energy not being able to heal him or even always be sweet and kind to him," she wrote.
"And sometimes his needs trigger resentment and anger in me and then I feel guilty about not being high vibrational and not being full of love and light and joy and positivity.
"It’s not easy to accept that I just am what I am and I am trying my best. I think that a lot of people can feel this way? Unable to find our own joy and radiance and energy because we are overwhelmed by the needs of the people we love.
"The angels are inviting us now to get more compassionate with ourselves and more accepting of our feelings and more willing to do whatever we need to do to get back in touch with our own needs and find what lights us up and energises us and fills our cup until it is overflowing and abundant and we are not being eaten alive and drained by our relationships."
After injuring his knee back in February, Victoria stressed that while MacGowan was putting on a brave face, she knew he was in pain.
"He was literally getting from the chair to the bed and he fell, so you know he’s usually pretty good humoured.
"Some days are better than others. He doesn't complain about being in pain, but it can't be hard."
